Choosing the right University and the right specialization or area of study for the Doctorate was at issue. Personal development, problems, and other fears led me to believe that maybe a Religious Program filled with a ton of people was the answer, even if not in a daily regimen of in person and on campus learning. This required a long revisit to the old belief system, mixed with old inspiration, words, people, problems, and the new design. Personal development is important, but these are professional matters; not teenage dreams that were delayed because of the wrong choice, a wrong turn, or a car wreck and court case. This was a true evaluation of the belief system, personal and professional needs, along with possibility. The decision was tough, but in the end, it is the right decision. Knowing who I am, what I need, want, and managing what is available, what was, and what is to be, and what could be is more important than trying to fit into someone else’s idea of a manufactured or professionally designed educational working group. At best it was enlightening, entertaining, thought provoking, and made me realize more of what I want, need, and don’t want in my surroundings or to be affiliated with.
I am not against Church Groups or specific Religious Universities, but I have expectations and things that I asked of “God” and I was shown proof of something, but it was not sufficient, nor was it to my liking and enjoyment, much like many other workers, non-religiously or robotically affiliated.